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Yesterday me and Mr. B had a longgggg talk. This is the first time in my life of knowing this man that we have talked some real shit.
I got a text from him last nite around 11. He asked me if it would be ok if he came over. I reminded him that I have a son here sleep and asked if he'd been drinking. He said he was but it wasn't strong enough. So then I asked if there was something wrong and he said that he was a lil depressed and was sorry to have bothered me. I told him that if my son wasn't here, he'd be welcome but I'm not ready to expose my son to noone but his father right now.
So then he kinda ended the conversation, but I knew there was something wrong. So I called him. He then tells me that he realized after his last girlfriend that he truly had to step back and do a reality check of his life and the potential women he let slip by. One of them being me. So I asked what brought this on. So he told me that he had a girl that really liked him, but he told her he didn't want anything more but to be her friend. So she didn't wait, she found someone and married him and now she's really happy. So he was a lil upset about it and finally hit him that he'd been an ass to some women in his life. When I wanted a relationship with him, he didn't cuz at first it was because I was so young. Then it was for other reasons. But I gave up on him and I tried to make something with me and my son's father (which you already know where that went...TO HELL!!). But in his own macho way, he apologized to me. I've never had this man get his deep with me and it was wierd, but I liked it. But what was weird was that me and my sis were talking about him that nite and then I get a text from him. I told him that me and my sis were talking about sex and I told her that of all the few men I've been with, he was the most interesting. Anything I wanted to do, he was always, always down. He told me the same thing too.
So the whole conversation we kinda reminisced about old shit and at that very moment, we started over. So about 12:30, we ended the conversation and I just got the pondering....did God bring him back into my life for a reason? Is he the one I'm supposed to be with? And I prayed that nite and asked God if he is the one, can he show me that he is.
Ok but enough of the mushy stuff....why did TVone have a Prince marathon on? I didn't get to watch it all cuz I was talking to Mr. B all nite. But it was awesome!!!
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