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Well not too much to update on. Everything is the same. But I did talk to my old babysitter last week. I'm trying to make amends with everyone from the past who I've held a grudge with. It was good. We talked for about 35 minutes. Everything is pretty much the same with her except she has a boyfriend and stuff.
My weekend was ok but Saturday I went to the self car wash to wash my car and my son locked himself in my shit. That was an experience cuz it took him like 15 minutes to unlock it. He finally got my remote to my car and popped the trunk. Yes I disciplined him for that. Cuz this will be the 2nd time he's done it to me. And he did it once to his father as well....lil stinker.
And yes I'm still kinda depressed about the whole babysitter thing. It could be tomorrow, a month, or possibly a few months...only time will tell.
I really thank the Goddess for her last comment to me about my son. Thank you for praising me, but I still feel like a bad mother. I guess it's kinda hard for me since it's my first child and I never had the chance to experience nothing like this until now. And when it comes to my baby, I get real emotional. People keep telling me that he will be fine, BUT!!! It's always a but with me. But I've been praying hard over this and am just putting it in God's hand like I am with the babysitter. And he has been getting bad reports from the teacher. All he does is throws tantrums now. But I guess they can handle it cuz he hasn't been told to go home. But he never threw a tantrum before, I wonder what is the deal now.
I've also been trying to do things one on one with him. I've taken away his movies for this week. Monday he felt the wrath, but yesterday and today it really didn't seem to faze him. So instead of the movies, today I tried coloring. He liked it for about 5 minutes and then got bored. I ended up coloring by myself. On Monday and Tuesday I have numbers, shapes, and letters on the fridge. I'd name a shape, letter, or number and have him bring it to me. He really enjoyed that. But when I tried to do things different (like coloring), he gets bored. He also likes looking in his animal book. I don't mind doing what he likes, but sometimes I'd like to do different things so that he won't get bored, but that doesn't seem to work with him. When he gets in a habit of doing one thing, it seems that thats all he wants to do, is that ONE thing!!! But I'm not gonna give up though. I will keep on trucking cuz that what we mothers have to do.
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