I'm a single black mother that is raising a wonderful lil boy!!!
I just can't believe the world today. People I know have been dropping like flies. I found out a couple of days ago that my son's father's good friend Meechie died last year of cancer. His birthday was this week, he would of been 32!! I'm tripping because I knew him. I'm also tripping that I'm only 2 years younger than him!!!! This is really fucking wit me. When I was with my son's father, we used to kick it with him and his wife (now his ex, they divorced some years back). My son's father is really torn about it. He said he was in good health. He used to run track when they were in college and shit. I told him that cancer doesn't discriminate. But then after he got divorced, he moved back to Peoria with his family and we all lost contact.
Then last week my sister tells me that our cousin told us that this guy name Big Bryan died of drunk driving. My son's father knew him too. He had told me that he just saw him like 2 weeks ago. He used to work at the local liquor store when I lived in Bolingbrook. Man this is just FUCKED UP!!!
I need to make amends with people now. I know for awhile that I have been angry wit a lot of people and that needs to change. I know that is my biggest problem, I hold a grudge to the bitter end. Life is too fucking short to be bitter and angry. I've realized that it's not cool, cuz then I don't get a blessing. So I'm gonna try. If you are reading this (and you know who you are), I'm cool and I'm not mad. Just taking it as a life lesson learned.
I also need to get back into church and get right with God. So many things I've been blessed with were all because of him. My son's new daycare has a church, so I will try to make it on this Sunday.
I know some of my readers keep me motivated. I'm grateful for you all and hope you keep me inspired. Even though we don't know each other, you guys are like fam to me. I love the fact that I have a whole new different kinda of friendship through the internet and I wanted to keep gaining that...THAT'S LOVE!!!!
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