I'm a single black mother that is raising a wonderful lil boy!!!
I just couldn't sleep this morning, so I'm up writing in my diary. I just don't know how long I can last at my job. I feel that I will never get anywhere in that place. I work for a municipality and it's so politcal. We recently just voted in a new mayor who we thought was going to change things, NOT!!! He only has two people who he goes to which is my supervisor (who is a lying kiss-ass) and the building director (who is a home wrecker). I can't stand the both of them. They think they are the smartest people at the city and no-one but them are the only ones running the city. Plus they are fucking each other and they think that noone knows. But it is so painfully obvious.
My supervisor is just an overall evil person. She uses her knowledge to get over on folks. Plus she abuses company time. She'll go off for 2-3 hours at a time on shopping ventures or to go fuck the building director and come back with her lunch in hand. Then she'll eat her food at her desk and this takes about 15 minutes or so. Then to top that all off, she put on her time card that she didn't take a lunch and put that 1/2 hour in as overtime. Ugh, FUCKING BITCH!! The mayor isn't going to say anything because she's so far up his ass that he's shitting blonde hair!!! And anyways, we all think he's gay anyway. What a panzy.
Well I know I haven't wrote for awhile. I really don't have an excuse as to why. But I just signed up for the gold membership and it's kinda of cool so far. I just wish someone would help me set up my page a lil better. I'm new to all this.
But man can you believe it, 5 more days to Christmas. Oh my God!!! I can't wait till it's here and gone baby. I don't mean to sound like a grench but maybe it's because I'm single and I have noone to get me in the Christmas spirit. The only reason why I get into it is because of my son. That lil turd keeps me going. I swear I'd change alot of things if it weren't for him. I think he's my savior.
You can't help but to fall in love with my son. People really don't understand our connection. Like my mom will tell me to stop calling him retarded and shit. She just don't understand that's the way him and I talk to each other. Cuz he'll give it right back to me. But now I see that he uses the way we talk to each out to other people. For example if we fart we call each other a cow. If we burp we'll call each other a pig. I picked him up yesterday from the baby-sitter and she told me that he heard her pass one and he called her a cow!!! I couldn't do anything but laugh. Because really, she is!!! A fat lazy cow at that, but hey I couldn't really tell her the truth now could I? I know in my heart the boy is not retarded, but he does some retarded shit. I don't know why boys like touching themselves. Sometimes when I give him a bath he'll come to the bedroom and just look and himself and the mirror and pucker his lips. Or he'll stroke himself too!!! Tell me that isn't some queer ass shit!!! Or if he farts, he like to put his hand on his ass, farts on his hand just so he can smell it!!! Again that is some retarded shit, don't you agree?
But anyway, life is ok. I don't have any colds, my asthma is doing ok too. When this year is over, I'm going to focus more on my needs. Like losing this weight!!!! I've let people get the best of me and all that shit is gonna change. Like I said in an earlier entry, this year kinda of sucked for me with people hurting me and just not being there for me when I needed them, but that's all gonna change, boo!!! I'm not going to give into every else's needs and put mine on the back burner and I'm going to learn to just say no!!!
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