I'm a single black mother that is raising a wonderful lil boy!!!
I'm so glad that it is Friday. I really have to stop talking to people at night and ending up going to bed at 11 or 12 at nite. But on my phone, my free nights don't kick in till like 9 and by that time I'm looking at my favorite show, That 70's Show. So by 9:30pm I've started conversation and sometimes I'm talking about something really juicy or I just lose track of time. My son, for some odd reason, hates when people get on the phone. Maybe it's because he thinks your ignoring him. But when the babysitter is on the phone, he screams. When I'm on the phone, he just goes to a different room. Kids....Go figure.
It's less than 3 weeks to go before my babe goes to school. I am so excited that I can pee on myself. Next weekend I have to get him some new shoes, a bookbag, and a spring jacket. I might go to Value City cuz the girls told me now is that time to get good deals on things. But I know when that day comes, I'll be crying my eyes out. The girls told me, please don't do it in front of him becuase it'll make it harder for him when I leave him there. I told them that I can't help it. When it comes to my son I am a very emotional person. Everything new that has happened to him, I've cried. I've cried when he got his first cold. I've cried when he got his first hair cut. The only time I think I've held the tears back (but trust me it was very hard) was when he first went pee-pee on the toliet. But if you count getting choked up, then I guess...
So yes I am a sap for my baby. I just can't believe that I had a kid and that I am humanly possible to teach him things. It just amazes me how he's grown, how he's learning new things, and the most important, that he's mine!!! Ten years ago, I just thought it was just gross when a kid pukes or dribbles on you. When they shitted in the pamper, I'd kindly give the kid back. So I'm very proud of myself that I tought my son how to piss and poop on the toliet. But it was a hard thing to do because his package is different from mine. Even though I worked alot of hours, I still came home and got in his ass about peeing on himself. It was tough, but him and I got through it. And he's finally wearing undies!!! YAY!! No more buying diapers or pull-ups!!! It's great and less expensive now. But if you asked me if I'd had another kid, I'd probably tell you no. But if I met someone special, I might would. I just wouldn't want to be a single mother again. It's easy to get pregnant and all, but it's very hard to be a single black mother. And most people who are married and have so called "happy families" will never know what it's like. But all the things that I went through with my son, I wouldn't change that part. I have to say that I am proud to be his mother. The only thing that I would change, is his father. Call me mean but it's the God honest truth. But unfortunately, I can't reverse that.
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